NOTHING IS CONSTANT BUT CHANGE, DARLING…My Mother used to tell me that.
[This is the edited edition]
Kit Tan the Cat and I are sitting on the Back Porch, noticing things that have changed since we were last here together. It is Thanksguving morning, and I am back to my house for a few dats visiting Kit Tan and the Kid*.
It’s been 7 months– almost 8 –since Kit Tan and I last enjoyed the healing ritual of fresh air, nature, and solitude together in the morning.
In December 2016, I set out on an Adventure. This was launched after the untimely death of my sister. I realized then, Life is short no matter how long we live, and I knew it was up to me to pursue my own happiness.
I didn’t know it at the time, but choices I made starting in December and continuing into early April, launched a time of major changes and transitions in my life. And, I know there are still many more transitions ahead of me, in this present batch of changes.
That’s probably the most important thing to know or understand about CHANGE, is that things come in batches. Because everything is connected and intertwined.
I had been job hunting, but I ramped it up in December, and applied for jobs in Tallahassee (300 miles from Cape Coral), Orlando (140), a small town near Tampa (100), and Fort Myers (10-20, depending in which bridge one crosses). I got invited to interviews everywhere but Orlando. I traveled a lot for those interviews, and even went to Upstate New York in the middle of a blizzard for a potential job. That one didn’t pan out.
In January, I told my husband of 10 years that when I got one of these jobs, we would become Separated. I’d been unhappy for over 8 years. I had repeatedly tried, but had not succeded, to make this marriage a life-affirming space, and with no improvement I was growing increasingly unhappy and despondent.
During this time, I met or got to know better, many members of my Spirit Family in Fort Myers. These are people you know who are not your blood or family relatives, but who are Kin, nevertheless: Spirit Sisters, Spirit Brothers, Extra Sons/Daughters/Kids*.
I went on some extensive Shamanic Journies in this time, and came back with the message, “We Are Soverign, Yet Connected.” I understand this message and it’s implications for me, and am blessed by the opportunity to grow by it.
I purged. I purged by packing, throwing stuff out — I had to confront thirty years accumulation of journal entries, novel notes, poems scribbled on paper napkins, correspondence. I gave stuff away. I held every object and verified how much joy I felt.
I got a job, and I moved. In April, I left the house I lived in, but which was no longer my home, and moved to Central Florida. I got an apartment on the second floor of a nice complex. (I’m still a Suburban Shaman.) My apartment windows face a forested area full of squirrels, and I traded my back yard porch, for a balcony in the treetops.
I moved my important objects and papers to my new apartment. The husband, the Kid*, and Kit Tan the Cat, all stayed behind. About a week later, I told my husband that I was feeling better, feeling much happier, and wanted a divorce.
At this point, something had to give and I postponed my Earthways Shamanic Path Gathering 2017, and temporarily stopped conducting my various classes in Earthways Shamanism. I continued posting to my blog, but was somewhat oblique about all the changes I was going through.
In April, I gave up eating alcohol, cola, hot chocolate, banana nut bread, prepackaged foods (like fish sticks), processed lunch meats, and watching hours and hours of TV.
Over the past several months, I’ve lost at least 25 pounds, because the apartment is on the 2nd floor, and because of the changes I made in April, and because I went on the low-carb diet, at the end if July. At that time, I gave up sugar, grains, beans/legumes, pasta, milk, fried foods, most fruits, and starchy vegetables. (**)
With the patient encouragement of a Very Dear Friend, I re-learned to cook, and began to exercise on a more regular schedule. I now have the energy to go on five-hour hikes in the Wilderness.
I worked. I had to get used to working 8 to 5 in an office setting, again. To bringing in a lunch each day, wearing office clothes, and getting my work done. This was hard for me, because I hadn’t done it in 4 years.
I am happy with all the changes I made, and the resulting freedom, yet, I miss my Kid, and Kit Tan, my friends and the lands of Southwest Florida. I miss my life that I gave up, when I leaped to my squirrel nest.
So, I started job hunting, again! And I got interviews…
At the end of August a big storm came through Southwest Florida and broke my beautiful Orchid Tree in half. It had to be cut down. I was heart-broken.
My divorce went through, just before Hurricane Irma came through. I buttoned up three dwellings, circumnavigated around Florida for 10 days and eventually evacuated to Marianna, Florida. Eventually, I returned to my nest among the tree tops and discovered it had weathered the storm. When I went to check on my house further south, I discovered the house was 100% fine! But my neighbor’s massive tree had fallen down, and had to be cut up and hauled away in pieces. I have lived next to that 60 foot tall tree for 15 years and never figured out what it was.*** Now it was gone and the neighboring wildlife has to re-roost. Plus, the shade and privacy this tree provided, is gone. All my neighbors can see each other now. (Oh, the joys of suburbia.)
<Photos of big tree refuse to post here.>
The changes I went through this year, were all good changes, but it hasn’t been easy! There were times when I had to shift my game plan and then shift it again, and keep going.
I started writing this post a month ago, while sitting on my beloved back porch. Much has changed since then, but that’s a topic for another post or two. This post has gotten sprawly, and I may have lost the thread of what I was trying to say. When I was a kid, my family experienced a life-changing big change. It was a positive event, yet, it was a shock to my young mind. At that time, my Mother told me, “Nothing is constant but change.” Over the years, I’ve learned that changes happen all around us. Big changes, little changes. The trees that fell, did so because they lost their flexibility, if they ever had it. They were not able to adapt and adjust. It is easier to embrace changes if you choose the changes.
Share your Peace with Mother Earth, Father Sky, and with the Big Waters all around us.
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* “Kids” in my usage, are adults.
** The diet I went on is called Ketosis-Paleo. It is working for me, but is not suitable for everyone. Please discuss it with your health care professionals.
***We call these trees, “Florida Trees,” and it covers a wide range of species.